The choice of two paths.....

I would like to start this blog by saying, this experience in NO way reflects the agency we use, how they have treated us as a whole during this adoption, or our previous adoption, but it does show how one person can throw a wrench in the whole process.Well, yesterday we got really bad news from our adoption agency. I feel the news they told us warranted a phone call, not an email, but I guess that's personal opinion. Up until this point (over 5 months in) we have been working to get our license to do straight adopt. We selected the 0-5 age range, in order to keep our kids in age order, and we wanted a girl. Apparently, our agency stopped licensing families in this age range to straight adopt awhile ago. The email we received yesterday from our home study worker basically said either we agree to foster, or we're done. We have not wanted to foster for the simple fact it would devastate our son to have a sibling, then that child go away. Our home study worker & her supervisor caught the mistake. I was completely blind sided & felt like I was punched in the stomach since up until this point our recruiter NEVER said this to us. We were told we could go the straight adopt route, we just need to accept a child of any race, which we were willing to do. I just don't understand how we made it this far in the process & no one had double checked our recruiters work. They do admit this was an error on the recruiters part & will be handling that accordingly. In order for us to proceed inside our age range with our current agency, we would be required to get licensed to foster first. We do have the option to leave this agency & try through another one, but we would have to start completely fresh with every document, reference & training class. At this point we have decided to move ahead & pursue our foster license with the hope of accepting a legal risk child. Sometimes it is hard to remember that our path is rocky, but it will lead us to our family. I pray that there is a reason we are being led down this road. Even after so many years, 3 miscarriages & more tears than I can count, when I look at my son, I would do every single bit of it again to have him. I hope in a couple years when we look back on this time, we say the same thing for our daughter.