Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Bring on Summer...

Can I just say the Summer can NOT come fast enough! It's been a long, cold, did I say long, winter in South Texas. We had more freezes & snow then I can remember, EVER. We all (mainly me & the girls) spent most of it bundle up & hunkered down in the house with chili & hot chocolate & movies & a fire! The days are getting warm enough to open the windows & let the Spring in. The kids are loving every minute of it but counting down the days until our waterpark opens (less than 4 weeks). As far as our new round of licensing goes, we are waiting for our frequent visitor's background checks to come back as well as a couple of our last reference checks. Once those things are completed we will move to home study!

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

EEG & Spring!

A few weeks age Delilah had a seizure. It was very short but unexplained. Her pediatrician wanted her to have an EEG done to check for epilepsy etc. Thank God everything came back normal & they still have no real explanation for the seizure. We are also completely done with training!! Yay! We have turned in everything for our new application. Our recruiter is currently working through our application & documents to see what all she needs before we can move on to home study! She should have everything wrapped up hopefully in the next couple of weeks! After that we need to go back to have our home study updated, a fire inspection, TB tests then we will go to the commitee to get approved. I will keep you guys updated!

Friday, March 14, 2014

What's the fuss all about?

              (My new car sticker)

As you probably guessed, were going back to adopt one more time. We have our fingers crossed for another boy. After everything that happened with the kids regarding their bio siblings we realized we really did want one more child. At first we thought we would just wait & see what happened, but ultimately decided to just move on. We can't live our lives waiting for siblings or to see if their bio moms get their life together. We have to live OUR life & live for right now. So at this point I'll tell you where we are in the process. We did have to get re licensed since we were inactive for a year. We turned in our application last week & have been doing our training this week. We go tomorrow for CPR & 1st aid & we will be DONE with training. At that point we just have a bunch of little stuff to gather to complete our file before moving on to home study. I will keep you updated on our progress!

Friday, February 21, 2014

Little by Little..

Life is returning to normal these days, little by little. The days have been slipping by faster and faster. The weather is warming up & I have to say it is a great mood lifter for me! In church on Sunday something really struck me. It seems there is always something that I need to hear so much. It was the shortest verse in the bible. It was when Jesus went to his friend Martha only to find Lazarus had died, and his family was in mourning. Upon seeing them "Jesus wept" (John 11.35). He didn't weep because Lazarus was dead (after all he was about to resurrect him). Instead Jesus wept with his disciples, he wept for their pain & their suffering. I know that during all of this, he wept with us. He was by our side. Just as Jesus could have told Martha he was about to resurrect Lazarus, he could show us the answers to our questions. But, it's all part of a plan that is so much bigger than us. As much as I would love to know all the answers & outcomes right now, I know that He has a plan for us, our babies & our family.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Never ending...

I spent the last 5 years in a stage I like to think of as "ignorance is bliss". I spent this time thinking the worst & most painful part of adoption was the time between placement & the day you finalize. The day you finalize all the pain ends & it's happily ever after! The last month has been a giant slap in the face. It has been the hardest time in this whole process. It has been full of tears, deep gut wrenching pain & sleepless nights. I can't even put into words what we have been through. I'll start at the beginning. A few months ago we found out one of our bio moms was expecting again. I don't think we were prepared for the roller coaster we got on. Initially we swore off taking the baby. We weren't ready & we didn't want to travel down that road. We had to be prepared for what we would say & as the day neared, we knew deep down we wouldn't be able to say no. We started to prepare ourselves mentally that we may have a new baby soon! Of course we know how this works, but you can't prepare your heart & guard it at the same time. I believe you go into this with your WHOLE heart, or you don't do it. We found out she went into labor & delivered. We were shocked when we found out she was allowed to take the baby home. After everything she had done in the past she was allowed to take that innocent baby home. The long term ramifications of this situation aren't lost on us. We can't go back & foster or adopt right now, because what if that baby does come into custody in 4 months, 10 month....2 years?! Would we then send away our foster or adoptive placement to foster a sibling? We surely couldn't keep both. Before we could even come to terms with all of that, we had salt rubbed in the wound. We found out our OTHER bio mom has a one year old child that was taken by the state & we were never called. I was instantly sick. That baby was legally adopted in September, it was too late. To this day I haven't been able to get an answer as to why we weren't called, contacted, notified.... anything. I can't even describe what it feels like to have a sibling taken from my children. It's very hard to mourn a child that isn't yours but so much a part of you & your children. Every bit of this is our kid's legacy & will be the truth of their future. We don't know what to do but continue with our lives. Day by day. Raise our kids & pray for peace everyday that there's a purpose... a plan. I know I've said it many times that God has never left my blind faith unrewarded & I know now isn't going to be different. But I also know God is OK with my pain, my anger, my confusion & my mourning. For now were passed the anger & the raw hurt. Our life moves on, even with little pieces of our babies scattered all over. I have to accept I can't put those pieces together. The pain of adoption isn't ONE sided, it isn't reserved for bio families, it's all around. It's everlasting. 

Monday, January 13, 2014

While we were out....

First I'll update on Delilah & the quarter! We ended up going in for her procedure the day before Christmas Eve, they did one last X-ray so the Dr. could see exactly where the quarter was for reference when he went in. After the x-ray we had to go to another area of the hospital for the actual procedure & turns out the quarter was totally gone & she had passed it! YAY!! What a great ending. We felt so blessed & relieved to have that done with! What a crazy story. Some of you guys may have noticed the blog was down for a little while. There are lots of things going on behind the scenes here & I really just wanted to take a break. I also took the blog down for privacy reasons & personal family reasons. I can't go into specifics, but the next few weeks will be a trying time for us, as a family. In other news, Everly celebrated her 4th birthday! Can you BELIEVE it? I can't! We took the kids to Schlitterbahn indoors & the kids had a great time! After we went to the Rainforest Cafe for lunch!

The kids also had an amazing Christmas. Chris was off the whole week after & it was amazing. We spent the 3 days before Christmas at my parents & left Christmas afternoon. We opened most of our presents at my parents house but saved some for home. We stayed bundled up all Christmas afternoon & evening opening presents & playing with all the new toys.
We also had a stay at home New Years Eve party. The kids had pizza, played with balloons,decorated cupcakes & drank "wine". They didn't make it to midnight, but that's OK! We didn't mind. 

We have also spent the last 10 days passing around a very dangerous strand of the flu. 3/5 of us got it, but we were lucky & caught it early so it wasn't too bad. I've also been super busy with work. My sales are going great & I really couldn't ask for more! I have amazing customers that keep me busy & for that I am always so grateful!