Monday, January 19, 2015
Over the last couple of weeks I've been asked one question, a dozen different ways. "How do you do it", "doesn't it make you sick", "don't you want to cry"? The answer is easy. We do it because he deserves it. It does make me sick. I do cry. I cry when the chaos is calmed, the kids are asleep or things are still. Sometimes in the bathroom, or in the car or while I work. Whenever they don't need me anymore, I can cry. When I stop to think about this little tiny child, so innocent & pure. I think of him like a tiny ball of cotton caught in a wind storm. We are here to cup our hands around him, to protect him from the chaos as much as we can. We have to calm his world, his fears, his hurt. Nothing can ever change what happened that day, that changes his fate forever. It can never be undone & he will never be the same. We just pray for him. We just pray until the storm passes, the clouds blow by & his fate unfolds, we can be here for him. Nothing we do can change this storm from coming, nothing can stop its wrath. Our only control is over what we let change us & who we are. We only have power over our family, our strength & the love we show this little ball of cotton! So until this storm passes, we will hold on tight.
Friday, January 16, 2015
I'm late, I know. But, a little over a week ago we welcomed an amazing little boy into our home. As always I can't say too much. I will say he came into state custody because of brutal, horrific abuse to a sibling. That's all I feel comfortable sharing. His case is brand new, we know nothing. His worker is still reading the initial reports & meeting with everyone on the medical team. We know what led the state to take him from his family & rip him from his whole life, but little else. At this point we don't even have a clue where his case is going. There is a possibility he could stay forever, or could be gone any day. His transition to us was & continues to be VERY difficult. We just ask you to pray for him, and his sibling, during this time. Pray they have peace & most importantly healing to overcome their past. We know this won't be easy & we are prepared as we could possibly be.
Thursday, December 25, 2014
I just want to take a minute to say Merry Christmas to each & every one of you. You're following our crazy journey through fostercare & adoption. It isn't always easy or predictable, but I try to keep it honest & sometimes very painfully raw. Adoption is born out of loss & there are so many bumps & sorrows along the way, that doesn't mean it isn't worth it. I hope each of you can take a little peace or comfort in our story, or find that maybe we've already gone through what you are now. I know that sometimes you just need to know you aren't alone or that your feelings are real, valid & very normal on this journey! This can be a very bitter time of year, and a difficult time to be waiting on your forever child. Merry Christmas from our little family to you!
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Monday, November 24, 2014
Halloween!! This is my favorite holiday, with the exception of Christmas. I love the spooky decorations, the costumes, just ALLL of it! Last year I made Delilah's costume, but this year all 3 wore store bought. I know. If it is any consolation I did alter the girl's dresses, a BUNCH. We went out to my Mom's & our kids went trick or treating with my niece & nephew. Our kids are cousins & we try really hard to get them together & let them grow up together as much as possible. A couple of weekends ago we also had my mom keep the kids overnight, for the first time EVER. Chris & I enjoyed it by spending the evening at an amazing sushi dinner. Sunday morning we had brunch & went shopping all alone. I know shopping at the mall may not seem like a huge "Date" to some people, but for us it IS. We never shop at the mall, just the 2 of us. In other news last weekend we took the kids to see Disney On Ice. I made the girls outfits & we made Tuck a shirt too. They LOVED it & the show was amazing as always! On the adoption front, we are still in the slow process of matching. Things usually slow waaaaay down this time of year. They hate to move kids from their foster homes this time of year & so many people take vacations too, so placements stay put a lot unless its unavoidable. We went into it this time knowing it could be a VERY long wait. The more people in your family, the more obstacles to work around & the more personalities to match. Our 6th family member has to fit into this crazy puzzle & there are already 5 other pieces. We are being patient & knowing that our child is out there, somewhere. When the time is right, and everything is perfect, they will come home!!