Monday, February 16, 2015

Case Updates...

Honestly there isn't much to tell! Our little guy is still with us & there have been no big changes in his case. We are still expecting him to go to a relative, but we aren't ready! We don't want him to leave, we love him so much! We will nickname him "Cotton" here! Currently they are evaluating relatives to see who/if anyone is suitable for him. On top of that his case has been transfered to another new worker who only handles intensive cases. She/He basically handles very serious CPS cases & therefore has a much smaller case load & can spend the time his case really needs. Cotton is doing so much better & is really starting to bond. He is learning & growing so fast, and making so much progress. I'm so proud of him & how far he has already come. I just pray if he is meant to leave they do it soon, before it becomes to tough for him. His memories of his family are fading so quickly.

Monday, January 19, 2015

When all is still....

Over the last couple of weeks I've been asked one question, a dozen different ways. "How do you do it", "doesn't it make you sick", "don't you want to cry"? The answer is easy. We do it because he deserves it. It does make me sick. I do cry. I cry when the chaos is calmed, the kids are asleep or things are still. Sometimes in the bathroom, or in the car or while I work. Whenever they don't need me anymore, I can cry. When I stop to think about this little tiny child, so innocent & pure. I think of him like a tiny ball of cotton caught in a wind storm. We are here to cup our hands around him, to protect him from the chaos as much as we can. We have to calm his world, his fears, his hurt. Nothing can ever change what happened that day, that changes his fate forever. It can never be undone & he will never be the same. We just pray for him. We just pray until the storm passes, the clouds blow by & his fate unfolds, we can be here for him. Nothing we do can change this storm from coming, nothing can stop its wrath. Our only control is over what we let change us & who we are. We only have power over our family, our strength & the love we show this little ball of cotton! So until this storm passes, we will hold on tight.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Anderson- Party of Six

I'm late, I know. But, a little over a week ago we welcomed an amazing little boy into our home. As always I can't say too much. I will say he came into state custody because of brutal, horrific abuse to a sibling. That's all I feel comfortable sharing. His case is brand new, we know nothing. His worker is still reading the initial reports & meeting with everyone on the medical team. We know what led the state to take him from his family & rip him from his whole life, but little else. At this point we don't even have a clue where his case is going. There is a possibility he could stay forever, or could be gone any day. His transition to us was & continues to be VERY difficult. We just ask you to pray for him, and his sibling, during this time. Pray they have peace & most importantly healing to overcome their past. We know this won't be easy & we are prepared as we could possibly be.

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Merry Christmas!

I just want to take a minute to say Merry Christmas to each & every one of you. You're following our crazy journey through fostercare & adoption. It isn't always easy or predictable, but I try to keep it honest & sometimes very painfully raw. Adoption is born out of loss & there are so many bumps & sorrows along the way, that doesn't mean it isn't worth it. I hope each of you can take a little peace or comfort in our story, or find that maybe we've already gone through what you are now. I know that sometimes you just need to know you aren't alone or that your feelings are real, valid & very normal on this journey! This can be a very bitter time of year, and a difficult time to be waiting on your forever child. Merry Christmas from our little family to you!

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Time to Give Thanks & Be Merry!

Its CHRISTMASSSSS!!! Oh yes, yes it is! I LOVE this time of year. Though, going through the adoption process during the holidays is just plain tough. Being in the matching process is so discouraging. So many things have happened in the last few months, I won't get into them NOW, but I will say they have led us to some new decisions. The number one is that we are willing to straight foster. A few things came to light that have made us realize we may need to take time before we rush to adopt again. I don't really know if or when I will go over everything that has happened recently, but its been a ride. We also took the kids to the local Renaissance Festival & have been enjoying all the things this season brings. I'm sure I will touch base if we get a placement & how that whole journey goes, or update a little bit about our Christmas! On a side note, the day after Thanksgiving we lost one of our precious dogs. She had been with us for 12 years, and we were crushed. She had been in declining health for the last 2 years, and we had been fighting for her the prior 2 weeks. In the end, her heart just couldn't keep up & we made the decision to put her to sleep. It was NOT a good way to bring in the holidays, but we feel SO grateful for 12 great & healthy years with her.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Halloween, Disney & Other Things.....

Halloween!! This is my favorite holiday, with the exception of Christmas. I love the spooky decorations, the costumes, just ALLL of it! Last year I made Delilah's costume, but this year all 3 wore store bought. I know. If it is any consolation I did alter the girl's dresses, a BUNCH. We went out to my Mom's & our kids went trick or treating with my niece & nephew. Our kids are cousins & we try really hard to get them together & let them grow up together as much as possible. A couple of weekends ago we also had my mom keep the kids overnight, for the first time EVER. Chris & I enjoyed it by spending the evening at an amazing sushi dinner. Sunday morning we had brunch & went shopping all alone. I know shopping at the mall may not seem like a huge "Date" to some people, but for us it IS. We never shop at the mall, just the 2 of us. In other news last weekend we took the kids to see Disney On Ice. I made the girls outfits & we made Tuck a shirt too. They LOVED it & the show was amazing as always! On the adoption front, we are still in the slow process of matching. Things usually slow waaaaay down this time of year. They hate to move kids from their foster homes this time of year & so many people take vacations too, so placements stay put a lot unless its unavoidable. We went into it this time knowing it could be a VERY long wait. The more people in your family, the more obstacles to work around & the more personalities to match. Our 6th family member has to fit into this crazy puzzle & there are already 5 other pieces. We are being patient & knowing that our child is out there, somewhere. When the time is right, and everything is perfect, they will come home!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Almost that time!

I can't believe we are sneaking up on the holidays again! It's hands down my favorite holidays of year (despite the cold weather which I loathe). We have become fully licensed & are currently waiting for a match & placement. We are willing to do low legal risk foster to adopt. This process can take awhile, or go SO quickly. We waited 8 months with Tuck & were open for placements less than 2 weeks when we brought the girls home. For now we are all busy with work, school & just life in general.