I know I've been totally MIA! It's been madness around here! After saving forEVER so we could pay cash, we finally bought a camper! It's our new baby. We've been taking it out every 2-3 weeks. So far we have been to The Highlands & saw the San Jacinto Monument, then Jamaica Beach & we got back today from Lake Livingston. We love the camper because is tiny but it has a big slide out & queen size beds fold out from each end! Our little Cotton is doing well. He is growing so fast & is just such a funny baby. His case is headed to reunification & we have been doing visitations. We are expecting him to go home by August.
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
We are SO happy around our house to see the first signs of Summer. We are BBQing every night on the back porch while the kids play & enjoying the time we have. The kids are looking forward to the end of the school year & swimming! Our foster son is doing well. He has settled in great & we love him to death. His case is looking like reunification, and he will be going home. It breaks my heart to think about giving him up, but I know nothing will change that. It's something I will have to do, WE will all have to do. He has started visitations with his bio family & I am so happy for him, and them. They deserve it, and he needs it too. We are going to do whatever it takes to make this as smooth & painless on HIM as we can. Meanwhile, we are enjoying these sweet first days of Summer!
Monday, February 16, 2015
Monday, January 19, 2015
Over the last couple of weeks I've been asked one question, a dozen different ways. "How do you do it", "doesn't it make you sick", "don't you want to cry"? The answer is easy. We do it because he deserves it. It does make me sick. I do cry. I cry when the chaos is calmed, the kids are asleep or things are still. Sometimes in the bathroom, or in the car or while I work. Whenever they don't need me anymore, I can cry. When I stop to think about this little tiny child, so innocent & pure. I think of him like a tiny ball of cotton caught in a wind storm. We are here to cup our hands around him, to protect him from the chaos as much as we can. We have to calm his world, his fears, his hurt. Nothing can ever change what happened that day, that changes his fate forever. It can never be undone & he will never be the same. We just pray for him. We just pray until the storm passes, the clouds blow by & his fate unfolds, we can be here for him. Nothing we do can change this storm from coming, nothing can stop its wrath. Our only control is over what we let change us & who we are. We only have power over our family, our strength & the love we show this little ball of cotton! So until this storm passes, we will hold on tight.
Friday, January 16, 2015
I'm late, I know. But, a little over a week ago we welcomed an amazing little boy into our home. As always I can't say too much. I will say he came into state custody because of brutal, horrific abuse to a sibling. That's all I feel comfortable sharing. His case is brand new, we know nothing. His worker is still reading the initial reports & meeting with everyone on the medical team. We know what led the state to take him from his family & rip him from his whole life, but little else. At this point we don't even have a clue where his case is going. There is a possibility he could stay forever, or could be gone any day. His transition to us was & continues to be VERY difficult. We just ask you to pray for him, and his sibling, during this time. Pray they have peace & most importantly healing to overcome their past. We know this won't be easy & we are prepared as we could possibly be.
Thursday, December 25, 2014
I just want to take a minute to say Merry Christmas to each & every one of you. You're following our crazy journey through fostercare & adoption. It isn't always easy or predictable, but I try to keep it honest & sometimes very painfully raw. Adoption is born out of loss & there are so many bumps & sorrows along the way, that doesn't mean it isn't worth it. I hope each of you can take a little peace or comfort in our story, or find that maybe we've already gone through what you are now. I know that sometimes you just need to know you aren't alone or that your feelings are real, valid & very normal on this journey! This can be a very bitter time of year, and a difficult time to be waiting on your forever child. Merry Christmas from our little family to you!